just how much of the present text remains driven by the ulterior motives of my own insular ego. Is this multi-layered electronic book not still part of my lifelong effort to call attention to myself by performing impressive feats of creative intellect, even achieving the “impossible” in the endeavor? My dream of January 26, 2010 reflects this deep-seated tendency in myself—and ends by calling it into question:

During a gathering at a friend’s house, I am displaying a tremendous breadth of metaphysical knowledge, especially about added dimensions. One young fellow who has heard me speak is extremely impressed by what I’ve said. I talk to him about other dimensions, and answer questions that he never thought could be answered. At one point he asks me the following question, not expecting I could possibly know the answer to it, given how difficult and abstruse the question is: “What is the true nature of the reality existing on the far side of objects, the side we can’t see?” I say, “You’re talking about the Laws of Perspective. The far side of objects involves the fourth dimension.”

The young man is so impressed by me that he wants to know if it would be okay for him to call me. Asking for my telephone number, he tears off a piece of paper and I write the number down for him. My feeling is that I don’t mind if he calls me, but I wind up thinking: What does it really matter? What am I getting out of it? I don’t need it, and don’t really want to start another relationship of this kind with somebody, based on how thoroughly impressed they are with my mental prowess.

The theme of “doing the impossible,” approaching the infinite, is echoed in an older dream.

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